I have been struggling with anxiety and depression since I was around 16 years old.
I have had body image issues throughout my teenage years, living on less than 1000 calories a day and continuously telling myself how fat I was.
In my early twenties the feelings of depersonalization and derealization started. I saw things that weren’t there. I felt emotionally numb and I was never sure if I was awake or asleep. I struggled getting out of bed. Was scared of supermarkets, fuel stations, loud noises, crowds, social situations, unfamiliar places and death. The scenarios that went on in my head were nuts!
I didn’t realise it was anxiety and depression until my body literally shut down. My whole body was shivering, my lips turned blue and my eyes were shaking in my head. This attack was a sign that I needed help. It was like all the built up years came out. I was used to panic attacks on a daily basis, but I never experienced an attack so severely.
This was the first time I decided that I needed to see a psychologist. Since then, I have been on quite a mental health journey. Have seen numerous psychologists, been on medication and supplements, meditation, read books and started exercising!
Exercise has been an absolute life saver for me. It clears my mind, builds confidence and lifts the mood! Making the step to becoming a Personal Trainer was an easy decision. I help people become happier and healthier. What a lucky gal!